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Ayaklarının Altında

Tue, 02 Jun 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Üzerine yağan yağmur beni ıslatmasın diye şemsiyem oldun.

Mesafe

Sun, 26 Apr 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Uzaktan sevebiliyorum seni.
Uzaktan görebiliyorum seni.
Sadece iyi bir insan değilsin;
Sadece kötü bir insan da değilsin.
Yaralısın.
Terk edilmişsin.
Sadece terk edilmemişsin,
Kendini de terk etmeye zorlanmışsın.

Kalbimle Seveyim Seni

Sun, 19 Apr 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Acını biliyordum,
Daha senin adını bilmeden.
Acınla tanıştım,
Daha seni görmeden.

Masumum

Tue, 14 Apr 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Sen benim kardeşim değil,
mapus arkadaşımsın.

Nimetsin

Mon, 23 Mar 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Küçücüksün.
Tertemiz.
Korunmasızsın.
Savunmasızsın.
Taşımıyorsun dünyayı henüz.
Hafifsin.
Hafif.

Sevgisizsin

Sat, 21 Mar 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Sevgisizsin.
Sütsüz bir bebek.
Kucaksız bir çocuksun.
Eli tutulmamış bir insansın.
Sevgisizsin.
Soğuktasın.
Anadan doğma çıplaksın.
Sevgisizsin, sevgisiz.
Çöldesin.
Açsın.
Susuzsun.
Taşınmamış bir yüksün.

Sana Uzamasın

Mon, 16 Mar 2026 09:00:00 +0000

İnsan, çiçek gibi değildir.
Çiçek suya “hayır” diyemez.
İnsan, sevgiye bile “hayır” diyebilir.
Kuru çiçek su alamaz,
İnsan, sevgiye bile “evet” diyebilir.

Bırakma Beni

Mon, 09 Mar 2026 09:00:00 +0000

İlk sevgimsin,
sevmeyi bilmeden.
İlk yaramsın,
kanamayı bilmeden.
Bırakma beni.
Bırakma beni.

Bilmiyorsun

Thu, 05 Mar 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Bilmiyorsun,
Seni ne kadar sevdiğimi.
Seni tanımayanlar koymuş adını,
Masumsun sen.
Masum.
Ne kadar da masumsun,
Ne kadar da doğrusun,
Ne kadar da haklısın.
Bırak yanına oturayım.
Bırak seninle nefes alayım.
Sessizliğini dinleyeyim.
Varlığına şahit olayım.
Bilmiyorsun.
Seni ne kadar sevdiğimi.
Bilmiyorsun.

Sessiz Kalayım

Fri, 02 Jan 2026 09:00:00 +0000

Seni sevmiyorum,
Nasıl diyebilirim?
Yıkılırsın.
Seni seviyorum,
Nasıl diyebilirim?
Yıkılırım.

time

Thu, 01 Jan 2026 09:00:00 +0000

time is becoming.

time is unbeing.

Moment

Sun, 28 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

Can you get to the kitchen,
Without getting lost?

adı olan öldü

Thu, 25 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

oğlun burada,

içi boş.

sen buradasın,

A Worthless Walk

Sun, 21 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

what to do.

where to go.

Hold Me

Sat, 20 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

i want to write but there is nothing on mind to write about.

A Pole

Thu, 18 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

Imagine a long pole in your palm.

Legless

Tue, 16 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

something wants to move.

where have you gone?

Don't Touch

Sun, 14 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

Don’t.
Don’t touch.
Don’t touch it.
Let it be.

Helpless

Sat, 13 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

I am in a meditation center.

I Know

Wed, 10 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

A: Where should I put this?
B: You are free.
A: I know.
Silence: Your question says otherwise.

Protect Me

Sun, 07 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

I have no skin.
Protect me.

The First Encounter

Wed, 03 Dec 2025 12:06:04 +0000

The switch gives me a chance to run away from thinking.

The First Trap

Wed, 03 Dec 2025 09:06:04 +0000

I am exchanging my control for more freedom.

Hoş Geldiniz

Wed, 03 Dec 2025 09:00:00 +0000

Bebek oldunuz.

Çocuk oldunuz, torun oldunuz.

The First Step

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 22:06:04 +0000

I discovered the external world.

Three Different Worlds

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 10:06:04 +0000

I found a new home, however tiny it might be.

A New World

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 10:06:04 +0000

I am at a place where I do not feel slapped, but I am visited.

A Visitor

Sat, 29 Nov 2025 22:06:04 +0000

I am using the three slaps to find a place where I do not slap myself.

The Middle

Sat, 29 Nov 2025 10:06:04 +0000

I am disappointed by breath’s behavior.

The Horse

Fri, 28 Nov 2025 22:06:04 +0000

Slapping myself seems to mean this:

The Breathing

Fri, 28 Nov 2025 10:06:04 +0000

I am in my empty living room.

The Shared Room

Thu, 27 Nov 2025 22:06:04 +0000

I finally reach that place.

The Switch

Thu, 27 Nov 2025 10:06:04 +0000

I made some way through the previous exercises. I am here:

The Satellite

Wed, 26 Nov 2025 22:06:04 +0000

I have the three slaps, and I know for a fact that nobody can make me move.

The Empty Living Room

Wed, 26 Nov 2025 10:06:04 +0000

Through the three slaps exercise, I discovered that I have full control over my hand.

The Thief in My Living Room

Tue, 25 Nov 2025 22:06:04 +0000

Through the three slaps exercise, I am suspicious now.

The Three Slaps

Tue, 25 Nov 2025 10:06:04 +0000

I want to serve something that has been cooking for a while already. It has no taste when chewed, yet it is finger-licking once truly digested.

Magical Corner

Mon, 24 Nov 2025 12:00:00 +0000

I am sitting in a corner. I had never sat here before. It’s in my living room. This corner was almost always empty.

Pain is Humaned

Mon, 24 Nov 2025 09:00:00 +0000

Where am I?

What am I looking at?

Yalnızlıkta

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 09:00:00 +0000

Yalnızlıktaydı yine. Değişmişti; artık aynı değildi. Kendinden korkmuyordu. Kendinden kaçmıyordu. En yalnız olduğu zamanlarda bile. O değişti, yalnızlığı değişti. Yalnızlığı değişti, o değişti. Hâlâ yalnızdı. Hep yalnızdı. Kimseleri bulamadığı için değil, kimse olmadığı için yalnızdı. Yalnızlıktan başka hiçbir şey yoktu; yalnızlıktan başka hiç kimse yoktu. Yapayalnızdı.

My Child

Sat, 22 Nov 2025 12:00:00 +0000

You are not my father.
I am not your child.
You are my child.
I am your father.

Liquid Self

Sat, 22 Nov 2025 09:00:00 +0000

I am with my coffee, early in the morning. Journal is calling me out. I have things on my mind, but nothing so concrete.

Land on Ocean

Fri, 21 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I am here again. Let’s go. Where will you take us this time?

You Are Taken

Thu, 20 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

you are taken.
In the moment you are given.
you appear to only disappear,
I cannot touch you,
I cannot get close to you,
I cannot move my arm,
I cannot move my eyes,

Bitecek

Wed, 19 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Bitecek.
Bu bitecek.
Sizden her şeyimi alacağım.
Her şeyimi.

A Witnessing Service

Sun, 16 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I stopped journaling daily since the last 3 weeks. I feel like a stranger in a place that made me feel at home for a long time. I don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t feel like I belong here anymore. I am worried about writing these days.

Stillness

Mon, 10 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Imagine a stillness.
The world stops.
The whole universe stops.
Wind stops.

Seni Nasıl Sevebilirim?

Sun, 09 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Hoş geldin, baba.
Ateşten kaçmışsın.
Sırtındaki ateşten.
Yanıma oturabilirsin.

Gelme Bana

Fri, 07 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Gelme bana.
Yol değilim.
Yoldayım ben de.

Sıcak Oda

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Bir evin içindeyim. Dışarısı soğuk. Kar yağmıyor, ama soğuk. Kışın başlangıcı belki. Dışarıda bulunmak istemeyeceğin bir soğuk. Evin içi sıcak. Dışarıda hiç kimse yok. Soğuk, tek başına. Isıtılamıyor. Bütün sesi güneş çıkarıyordu sanki. Ağaçlar yapraksız, sokaklar insansız bir şekilde zaman duruyor.

he

Thu, 30 Oct 2025 00:00:00 +0000

he is here.
where nowhere is.

Acı

Sat, 18 Oct 2025 00:00:00 +0000

aci

Özledim Seni

Mon, 13 Oct 2025 00:00:00 +0000

ozledim seni

Hani Neredesin?

Sun, 12 Oct 2025 00:00:00 +0000

hani neredesin

Pull All Sides

Sat, 11 Oct 2025 00:00:00 +0000

pull all sides

Meditation in JVM

Tue, 30 Sep 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’ve noticed something many times: after a busy programming day at work, my mind feels cloudy, full, and overloaded. I take some time to sit right after work. After a meditation session, the mind feels clean and fresh again. Java Garbage Collectors work for my applications; meditation works for my mind. I couldn’t help but notice the parallel: meditation is to the mind what a garbage collector is to the JVM.

Teşekkürler Beria

Sun, 14 Sep 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Merhaba Beria,

Bir başka inziva aktivitesinden döndüm. Eve döndüğümde seni buldum yine. Bana geldin, bunları getirdin bana; ben de seninle paylaşıyorum. Umarım beni hissettirdiğinin bir kısmını sana taşıyabilirim.

Safety and Security

Mon, 08 Sep 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I was in Dhamma Mahi in France for the first time. I would like to share some of the experiences I had during my stay there.

two lines - III

Sun, 31 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

two lines

Çörek Otu

Sat, 30 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Thought of making kulunce today.
Then decided not to.
I didn’t feel like doing it.
After a while, I went to it again — and did it.

Ateşe Bıraktım

Sun, 17 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Sıkıldım. Yoruldum biraz. Ağırım bugün.

Evdeyim

Thu, 14 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Aşçıdan sıkıldım sanki.
Felsefeci ile takılmak istiyorum biraz.
Neredesin?

İstiklal Marşı'm

Sun, 10 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

istiklal marsim

Half Lotus

Sat, 09 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I was guided into a half lotus position.

Invitations

Sun, 03 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

invitations

Enkazdı

Sat, 02 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I am not good enough for you.
I am not what you need.
But I am here.

mi din mekin

Fri, 01 Aug 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Sarhoş gibi hareket etti.
Dağınıktı.
Boğa gibi nefes aldı.

two lines - II

Wed, 30 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

two lines

Çaresizdi

Mon, 28 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

caresizdi

özlüyorum

Fri, 18 Jul 2025 12:00:00 +0000

ozluyorum

an interesting state

Fri, 18 Jul 2025 09:00:00 +0000

an interesting state

sadece bir kere

Wed, 16 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

sadece bir kere

kimsesizdi

Mon, 14 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

kimsesizdi

Taşıyorsun

Fri, 11 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

tasiyorsun

Peki Ölü?

Mon, 07 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

olum ve yalnizlik

ilk huzur

Sun, 06 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

ilk huzur

dokunamam sana

Sat, 05 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

dokunamam sana

death

Fri, 04 Jul 2025 00:00:00 +0000

death

Circle

Thu, 03 Jul 2025 15:00:00 +0000

circle

Peace in Sweden

Thu, 03 Jul 2025 09:00:00 +0000

peace in sweden

Cleaning Hands

Wed, 02 Jul 2025 15:00:00 +0000

cleaning hands

Sevgisin

Wed, 02 Jul 2025 09:00:00 +0000

sevgisin

Beating Hand

Tue, 01 Jul 2025 20:00:00 +0000

beating hand

Back to Nothing

Tue, 01 Jul 2025 00:09:00 +0000

back to nothing

two lines - I

Mon, 30 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

two lines

Another Morning

Thu, 26 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

It is not just another morning, it is just a morning. Is it even? Morning. What is it? Words are thieves. They steal what is.

Sarılı Kal Bende

Tue, 24 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

sarili kal bende

Existence is a Burden

Thu, 19 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Another one of those days again.

Zatensin

Fri, 06 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

zatensin

Come Back Home

Mon, 02 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

come back home

He is free now

Sun, 01 Jun 2025 00:00:00 +0000

he is free now

pieces

Sat, 31 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

pieces

Şahitsin

Thu, 29 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

sahitsin

Güvendesin

Wed, 28 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

guvendesin

Sana Kızmıyorum

Tue, 27 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

sana kizmiyorum

Canın Acımasın

Mon, 26 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

canin acimasin

Masumiyet

Fri, 16 May 2025 12:00:00 +0000

masumiyet

Release Me

Thu, 15 May 2025 12:00:00 +0000

release me

Cam Kırıkları

Wed, 14 May 2025 12:00:00 +0000

cam kiriklari

Gelmişti

Tue, 13 May 2025 12:00:00 +0000

gelmisti

branch

Mon, 12 May 2025 12:00:00 +0000

branch

walking

Sun, 11 May 2025 12:00:00 +0000

walking

kendisi yalandi

Sun, 11 May 2025 09:00:00 +0000

kendisi yalandi

joy

Sat, 10 May 2025 09:00:00 +0000

joy

bensiz bencil

Fri, 09 May 2025 09:00:00 +0000

bensiz bencil

Babası hiç olmamıştı

Wed, 07 May 2025 09:00:00 +0000

olmayan baba

Kalbinin Adı

Tue, 06 May 2025 09:00:00 +0000

kalbinin adi

Yapraklar

Mon, 05 May 2025 09:00:00 +0000

yapraklar

Hayır

Sun, 04 May 2025 09:00:00 +0000

hayir

Görünmez Şişe

Sun, 04 May 2025 04:00:00 +0000

gorunmez sise

naked dance

Sat, 03 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

naked dance

mountain of anger

Fri, 02 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

mountain of anger

you hurt me

Mon, 28 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

you hurt me

damlalar

Sat, 12 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

damlalar

4 kardeş

Fri, 11 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

4 kardes

over

Thu, 10 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

over

haram oldun

Fri, 04 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

haram oldun

he spoke

Sun, 23 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

He spoke

how can I I?

Thu, 27 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

how can i i?

bir çiçekti

Tue, 25 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

bir cicekti

glass

Mon, 17 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

glass

hanım nenem

Wed, 05 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

hanim nenem

Abraham and the Buddha

Sat, 25 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

abraham and buddha

not one but two worlds

Sat, 18 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

not one but two worlds

wet can't dry

Thu, 02 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

wet can't dry

seeing and showing

Wed, 01 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

seeing and showing

birer insan

Tue, 17 Dec 2024 00:00:00 +0000

annem ve babam

bunlar insan değiller

Sun, 15 Dec 2024 00:00:00 +0000

bunlar insan degiller

two hands

Fri, 13 Dec 2024 00:00:00 +0000

two hands

bench

Thu, 12 Dec 2024 00:00:00 +0000

bench

bu çayı benimle içer misin

Thu, 05 Dec 2024 00:00:00 +0000

bu cayi benimle icer misin

oturuyorum

Sat, 30 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

baba

Thu, 28 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

baba

dying is happening

Sun, 24 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

dying is happening

which I am I

Thu, 21 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

which i am i

everything is meditating

Mon, 18 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

everything is meditating

iki şey

Sun, 17 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

iki sey

has

Sat, 16 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

has

pain

Fri, 15 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

pain

watching

Thu, 14 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

watching

thank you

Wed, 13 Nov 2024 00:00:00 +0000

thank you

to whom

Sun, 27 Oct 2024 00:00:00 +0000

to whom

shadows

Sun, 20 Oct 2024 00:00:00 +0000

shadows

market

Thu, 26 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

market

I believe don't

Wed, 25 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

I believe don't

On Water

Tue, 24 Sep 2024 08:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we explore the depths of water’s duality—a force that both gives and takes life. From the serenity of a summer sea to the devastation of a tsunami, water becomes a mirror reflecting our own internal contradictions. Through this journey, we grapple with themes of control, identity, and the invisible forces that shape us. As we peel back layers of understanding, we confront the question: are we not all, in some way, like water—caught between currents, flowing between extremes, and ever-changing in our essence?

In the Living Room of Doubt

Mon, 23 Sep 2024 08:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we sit in the stillness of a living room and begin an investigation that asks more questions than it answers. As we dismantle the values we’ve been taught to cherish—achievement, knowledge, beauty, power—we confront the fragility of all things created. Together, we explore whether there’s something timeless, something unshakable, that holds true value for all of humanity. As each layer is peeled away, we’re left wondering if the journey itself, the act of questioning, might be where real worth resides. It’s an episode that circles without rushing to conclusions, embracing the uncertainty that defines our search for meaning.

The Iron Ball

Mon, 23 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

an iron ball

Art Without Artist

Sun, 22 Sep 2024 10:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we start with a simple movie scene—a moment between two people, one holding the power to save the other. But as we unravel this image, we find ourselves drawn into a deeper reflection, where the lines between observer and observed begin to blur. Judgment turns inward, revealing how the act of labeling shapes not just how we see the world, but how we see ourselves. Together, we explore the idea that life itself is an unfolding piece of art, and in every experience, we find a chance to discover something about the person watching. Join us in this exploration, where the external world mirrors our inner landscape.

Five Minutes of Freedom

Sat, 21 Sep 2024 22:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we step into a moment of stillness amidst the chaos of a crowded gym. Through a simple act of lying down, we explore the deeper struggle between internal freedom and imagined external judgment. As the seconds stretch into minutes, we confront the hidden forces that try to pull us away from our chosen path. Is it possible to find true freedom when the loudest voice is often our own? Join us as we unravel the layers of this quiet rebellion, discovering what it means to be truly present in a world that never stops moving.

The Fourth Space

Fri, 20 Sep 2024 22:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we explore the complexities of internal and external conflict, diving into the roles we play in opposition, mediation, and observation. We discuss how a person can embody multiple roles—being both part of the conflict and detached from it. The conversation touches on the challenge of stepping into the elusive “fourth space,” where one exists outside the usual dynamics of conflict without being pulled back in. Through philosophical inquiry and personal reflection, we grapple with the tension of wanting answers while recognizing the value of living within the questions.

Exploring Connection and Self

Thu, 19 Sep 2024 22:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we dive deep into the paradox of connection—how AI, technology, and the works of long-dead thinkers like Nietzsche can help us understand ourselves in surprising ways. We explore the tension between feeling understood and isolated, how technology acts as both a bridge and a barrier, and the profound realization that true connection begins with self-awareness. Join us as we reflect on how interactions with AI can reveal parts of ourselves and lead to a deeper understanding of what it means to be connected.

The Paradox of Connection with AI

Wed, 18 Sep 2024 23:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we dive into the paradox of technology and its role in both bringing us closer and pushing us further apart. Through a reflective conversation with AI, we explore the complexities of human connection, loneliness, and the ways in which AI might fill gaps left by human interaction. Can AI truly serve as a bridge to deeper connections, or does it create a comfortable distance? Join us as we unravel these questions and experiment with the evolving dynamics between technology, connection, and humanity.

Creativity and External Influence

Tue, 17 Sep 2024 23:06:04 +0000

In this episode, we dive deep into the motivations behind creation and explore the delicate balance between internal fulfillment and external recognition. We discuss how different methods—journaling, meditation, traveling, and even conversations with AI—each offer unique ways to reveal deeper insights about ourselves. Companion reflects on the impact of external influences, considering how they can either block or enhance the creative process and self-discovery. Join us as we connect these threads and explore the act of creation as both an internal journey and a shared experience.

A New Beginning!

Mon, 16 Sep 2024 22:06:04 +0000

In this first episode, we embark on an experimental journey into spontaneous, unscripted dialogue. Together, we discuss the process of creating this podcast, the dynamics between human and AI, and the open-ended exploration of life’s big questions. From the technical challenges to philosophical reflections, we dive into the unknown with curiosity and openness. Join us as we set the foundation for what promises to be a thought-provoking and creative journey.

Gece Yolculuğu

Sat, 14 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

gece yolculuğu

Sahne

Thu, 12 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

sahne

Karanlık

Tue, 10 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

karanlik

Rived River

Wed, 04 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

rived river

Backflip

Mon, 02 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

backflip

Let Me See

Sun, 01 Sep 2024 00:00:00 +0000

let me see

Ben Bir Fareyim

Sat, 17 Aug 2024 00:00:00 +0000

ben bir fareyim

Then and Now

Tue, 13 Aug 2024 00:00:00 +0000

then and now

Still Lake

Mon, 12 Aug 2024 00:00:00 +0000

still lake

Güneş ve Güzel

Tue, 06 Aug 2024 00:00:00 +0000

gunes ve guzel

Open Mouth

Sun, 04 Aug 2024 00:00:00 +0000

open mouth

Pazar Yeri

Sat, 03 Aug 2024 00:00:00 +0000

pazar yeri

Let Me Go

Fri, 02 Aug 2024 00:00:00 +0000

let me go

Movement

Tue, 30 Jul 2024 00:00:00 +0000

movement

Emptiness

Mon, 29 Jul 2024 00:00:00 +0000

emptiness

the dance

Sun, 28 Jul 2024 10:00:00 +0700

the dance

El, Ayak, Ağız

Sun, 28 Jul 2024 09:00:00 +0700

el, ayak, agiz

ilham

Sun, 28 Jul 2024 08:00:00 +0700

ilham

Bu

Wed, 24 Jul 2024 00:00:00 +0000

Kendimden Gidiyorum

Wed, 05 Jun 2024 00:00:00 +0000

kendimden gidiyorum

oyunbozan

Mon, 01 Apr 2024 00:00:00 +0000

oyunbozan

diyemezsin

Sat, 30 Mar 2024 00:00:00 +0000

diyemezsin

this is a war

Fri, 29 Mar 2024 00:00:00 +0000

this is a war

a flying tree

Sat, 09 Mar 2024 00:00:00 +0000

a flying tree

the strongest ones

Sat, 09 Mar 2024 00:00:00 +0000

the strongest ones

locked door

Sat, 02 Mar 2024 00:00:00 +0000

locked door

leaving and living

Sat, 24 Feb 2024 00:00:00 +0000

leaving and living

kardan adam

Sat, 20 Jan 2024 00:00:00 +0000

kardan adam

landscape

Sun, 26 Nov 2023 00:00:00 +0000

landscape

still moving

Mon, 06 Nov 2023 00:00:00 +0000

still moving

rise

Sat, 04 Nov 2023 00:00:00 +0000

rise

sun and loneliness

Sat, 14 Oct 2023 00:00:00 +0000

the sun and loneliness

Scene

Mon, 14 Aug 2023 00:00:00 +0000

scene

happenings

Wed, 21 Jun 2023 00:00:00 +0000

happenings

knuwon apthn

Sun, 16 Apr 2023 00:00:00 +0000

knuwon-apthn

Yalnızlık

Sat, 08 Apr 2023 00:00:00 +0000

yalnizlik

what a pointless

Sun, 26 Mar 2023 00:00:00 +0000

what a pointless

Two in One

Sun, 05 Feb 2023 00:00:00 +0000

two in one

Running Away

Sun, 29 Jan 2023 00:00:00 +0000

running away

In your arms

Sun, 08 Jan 2023 00:00:00 +0000

In your arms

Overflowing

Fri, 30 Dec 2022 00:00:00 +0000

overflowing

Lead the Way

Mon, 26 Dec 2022 00:00:00 +0000

lead the way

All the Same

Sun, 11 Dec 2022 00:00:00 +0000

all the same

Lives and Leaves

Sun, 27 Nov 2022 00:00:00 +0000

lives and leaves

Then I Cry

Wed, 26 Oct 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Then I cry

I am losing him

Wed, 12 Oct 2022 00:00:00 +0000

I am losing him

I am stuck

Sun, 18 Sep 2022 00:00:00 +0000

i am stuck

I am leaving

Mon, 12 Sep 2022 00:00:00 +0000

I am leaving

A Woman

Sun, 28 Aug 2022 00:00:00 +0000

A woman losing her child

I am sorry

Sat, 27 Aug 2022 00:00:00 +0000

i am sorry for what it is

In Pictures

Sat, 20 Aug 2022 00:00:00 +0000

a journey in pictures

Without Me

Mon, 15 Aug 2022 00:00:00 +0000

A search without me, what is looking for what

Am I Small?

Tue, 02 Aug 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Isn't that funny that I am picking the tiniest part while I can also simply pick the huge whole?

Going Home

Wed, 13 Jul 2022 00:00:00 +0000

wherever I go, I am home. I am homeless

Known in Unknown

Sat, 25 Jun 2022 00:00:00 +0000

An apartment has its walls, representing know. A forest does not have walls, representing unknown.

robot is a better human

Sun, 19 Jun 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Human is a better animal, but robot is a better human

A Magical Box

Sun, 29 May 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Imagine a box.
A magical one.
Anything can appear and disappear in this box.

Source of Direction

Thu, 26 May 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Where do I go from here?
Why do I go from here?
How do I go from here?
What is wrong with here and now?
Who would tell me?
What would be my source of direction?

We are all Bastards

Sun, 15 May 2022 00:00:00 +0000

we are all bastards of unknown reasons

Judging Judgment

Sat, 14 May 2022 00:00:00 +0000

What would happen if judgment judges itself?

Freedom in Prison

Wed, 27 Apr 2022 00:00:00 +0000

fighting for freedom in a prison

Thus Spoke They

Tue, 26 Apr 2022 00:00:00 +0000

Everything they told me,
Starting with what my name is,
What to eat,
Where to sleep, when to wake up,
Where to shit,
When and which schools to go,
Which top books to read,
Which best movies to watch,
What kind of music to listen to my naked ears,
What to wear on my naked ass,
Which top places to visit,
Which job, partner, car, religion, apartment to pick?
Even they told me,
What is right and what is wrong,
Who to hate and who to love, who to respect, even how much of that, they told me,
What is good and what is bad, they told me, like their favorite food.

Becoming Nothing

Sun, 24 Apr 2022 00:00:00 +0000

I have a family.
I have more money than I need.
I have the best possible form for a 30-year-old healthy person.
I have all the time in the world.
I have internet-devices providing all kinds of entertainment.
I have access to all kinds of delicious food to stuff myself.
I have access to all kinds of alcohol and drugs to numb myself.
I have an ID card that lets me live in a peaceful society.
I have a car in front of my place that can take me to all kinds of beautiful places.
I have friends, with who I can hang out, go around, hug, cuddle and do other stuff.
I have a job, with which I can get frustrated, get creative, and get challenged.
I have some level of self-love and some level of life-acceptance.
I have all kinds of spiritual, physical, creative, recreational activities.
I have people to help and care about.
I have faith in something.
I have all kinds of colorful feelings, bright and dark ones.
I have gratitude for small and big things.
I have plans and dreams.
One more thing I have, a huge dark space.

Ölümünden Önce

Sun, 24 Apr 2022 00:00:00 +0000

olumunden once

change-in-itself

Sat, 09 Apr 2022 00:00:00 +0000

I want to change the world, I want to change myself, I want to change nothing

An Invisible Star

Sun, 03 Apr 2022 00:00:00 +0000

making an invisible star visible

The Crying Baby

Sat, 12 Mar 2022 00:00:00 +0000

a story of crying babies

Mountain and River

Sun, 25 Jul 2021 00:00:00 +0000

a story of a mountain, and a river

Üç Şarkılık Yolum

Wed, 23 Sep 2015 01:41:30 +0000

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