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2025-08-01 I was an investment. I am a dam. The concrete can’t hold anymore. ...

Thought of making kulunce today. Then decided not to. I didn’t feel like doing it. After a while, I went to it again — and did it. ...

I was guided into a half lotus position. ...

I am sitting on the balcony this morning, enjoying coffee — from pot to white mug. It tastes like coffee. ...

2025-07-01 Would you take the truth? If it was me. ...

I feel like my spine is building a better structure for itself, around itself, to hold itself better. ...

You are going to die! I am going to die! How are you able to forget — forget this single fact of your life? ...

I want to lie down under a tree. Hopefully there will be some cool breeze. I don’t know if I want someone around, but if there must be, it must be someone who can stay quiet — no talking, just to share the space, just be together. ...

Thoughts about van life, Urfa life, and all that — they’ve calmed down. They’re not pulling me around anymore. I don’t feel the urge to search or think about those things today. ...

There was noise and movement. It felt like a ritual. It was going well, until suddenly the mood changed. ...